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R.I.P. Butchie.

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 15:40:04 GMT

The dog everyone wanted to take home with them, I'm going to miss him with all my heart.

First Aries, then Inde, then Loka, now Butchie.. Home just isn't the same anymore. </3 Love you babies.

How lucky we are...

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 05:18:14 GMT

Recent events have caused me to realize that we are truly lucky simply to be here to spend time fretting about homework, both fighting and enjoying our time with loved ones, and generally living our day-to-day lives.

To everyone who has lost someone recently my thoughts are with you. May we all grow stronger in their memory and remember to live our lives to the fullest and treat those we care about with the respect and love that we feel for them. Its times like this that we realize how fortunate we are... If only we didn't forget or take it for granted.

I know I'm guilty of stressing over petty things and forgetting about the big, positive picture, but I am certainly going to make a more conscious effort going forward.

Time for bed and an opportunity to spend the night in the arms of the man I love, may we all be so lucky.
DW

Week of hellll!!

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 21:35:10 GMT

I am 100% stressing this week. I am glad to think that I only have a few weeks of classes left so I just have to keep on trucking to get through it.

I'm also nervous for my doc appointment tomorrow. Eek!

I can't wait for Christmas!! 38 days :D

It's been years...

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 02:17:28 GMT

WOW!

It has been years!! You can tell I've got lots of work to do and am procrastinating.

I just re-read the postings I made years ago, and had to laugh at some of the things I wrote. Boy have things changed!! One person I cut out of my life is still gone completely , and another that I thought had left me is now a regular part of my life.
The boy drama is over, and Hassan has made my life so stable and comfortable the past 18+months, it's hard to believe I ever stressed about it. I love you Mister <3
Anyway, I'm not here for a long update, to talk about 3 years would take ages...

Sun, 04 Nov 2007 20:08:32 GMT

I have a day off. it's fantabulous.

I'm super stoked for this table Katie is having @ her church bazaar or craft sale or something.

She's making jewellery and it got me excited to do some crafts myself. It's been forever since I have. I'm making ornaments and boxes and centrepieces and coasters and they look great, I think anyway. I'm such a grandma, but at least I'm not spending a tonne of money for once lol

Anywho, I'm off to clean my room and do homework.

P.S. I Love Fall-Back for daylight savings time! <3

long time

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 23:47:00 GMT

ok, sooooooo it's basically been FOREVER.

but that's cool, I'm hoping I'm a bit less dramatic than I was before hehe.. it's been almost a year after all.

Important stuff to know? Not much really..
I'm going into 3rd year and loving it.. for now at least. I've met the best people in the past couple weeks and partied up a storm and can't complain for a milli-second.

I do miss writing though.. but I have to get back into it.. anyway, got homework and random crap to do,

cheers!
&hearts;

boys suck, lets go drinkin'

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 19:48:19 GMT

a girl's intuition is incredible.

don't worry, you don't have to worry about getting hurt if you hurt her first boys.

fuck boyz, let's go drinkinn'!!!!

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 06:02:21 GMT

don't be jealous...

it's not worth this.
well i say that now... but other times i would definitely think it is.. i think. those times seem so long ago.

my head hurts, my eyes are no longer burning but puffy, my world's spinning out of control and i don't have you to turn to.
how did you go from my support to the reason i cry, so fast?
what happened? i dont understand it.. why why why why why...
i just dont get it. what did i do?

i built walls for a reason.. i remember why now.

shortie said it best "now do you remember why you stayed single?"

i guess i'm glad i am single.. it's funny how the two guys who have hurt me the most i never entered relationships with..
i'm not ready for this.. i don't think i'll ever be.

i guess it's over.. it was good while it lasted.. whatever "it" is / was.

i miss you already, just don't let me lose you as my friend... please

i love surprises.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 05:22:11 GMT

you surprise me every day..
and i couldn't love it anymore.

this is so much more than i expected, so much more than i could've dreamed off.

reality with you really is better than any dream..
i never want to go to sleep.

♥

productivity..

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 05:22:18 GMT

this year is going to be different.
now i know i say that every year, but i know this time it will be. i'm not going to aim for perfection, what's the point? i know that contradicts my favourite quote, but to me, perfection is something quite different.
this year i have different goals.. sort of, but i have people to keep me in line.

David, you've got me excited for my fitness goals.. and if i'm gonna be dedicated to this rigorous routine i better see results dammit :P hopefully this'll help my energy, my focus, and my stress levels.

Work.. that's not a goal that I TRY to make, it just has to happen.. I'm so glad I'm cutting back. 20 hrs one week, 33 hrs the next, repeat.. sweet ass deal.

School I have to improve on, there's no question.. It's all a matter of priorities. I will make this year work, I need to... Less time on msn, less time doing nothing, more time reading and taking notes.. hell if all I do is go to class I'm already gonna do better :o)

It's going to be weird without YOUCAN.. but it's time for me to focus. YOUCAN isn't going away anytime soon, and I'm not goin' anywhere with this routine I'm in.

Friends, I hate to say it.. I probly won't see you anymore than I have in the past. I would love to say that I will, but money will be tight and I know I'm going to be crazy busy. Nights in will likely be more common, hey I can have people in my new room.. that'll be sweeeet.

Home.. everchanging. My new room will kick ass, I'm excited. A fresh start... Mom's surgery will be super tough, but we'll make it through. Selfish, I know.. but I hope her surgery doesn't stop me from going to Toronto for Thanksgiving weekend.. I am looking forward to this ridiculously.

Him. that will be the biggest change of all.. I'm looking forward to it, so much. these past couple months have been incredible. I'm loving it, and just trying to enjoy it..

<3

Best Friends

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 07:03:49 GMT

I guess that sums things up...

My choice I guess.. but doesn't make these tears stop falling. Doesn't lighten my mood.. I had such hope. I hope I didn't kill any if he had it...

Thank you Meagan for being there, and I hope you're right...

I told him earlier I believe in fate and that everything happens for a reason, I guess this is a test of my beliefs.

I am soo lucky to have him as a friend, whether it feels like it right now or not.

Logically I made the right choice, Emotionally doesn't seem like it... Practically.. We shall see.

No regrets... Right??
</3

I miss you..

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 14:58:27 GMT

I can't explain what I've been going through or why it surrounds you...

Thank You Incubus....

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

and Jessica Simpson...

Did you ever love somebody?
So much that the earth moved
Did you ever love somebody?
Even though it hurt to
Did you ever love somebody?
Nothing else your heart could do
Did you ever love somebody?
Who never knew
Did you ever lay your head down
On the shoulder of a good friend
And then had to look away somehow
Had to hide the way you felt for them
Have you ever prayed the day would come
You'd hear them say they feel it too
Did you ever love someone?
Who never knew
I do.
And if you did
Well you know I'd understand
I could, I would
More than anybody can
Did you ever love somebody?
So much that the earth moved
Did you ever love somebody?
Even though it hurt to
Did you ever love somebody?
Nothing else your heart could do
Did you ever love somebody?
Like I love you
Like I love you
Like I love you

These past two months have been a roller coaster. I don't know if I'm strapped in, all I know is I'm alive.. and I actually think I am truly alive for the first time in a while.
I won't deny there have been moments, when to me you've been a million dollars and I've felt like I was your pocket change.. valuable only when you were looking for something specific or in large quantities, but you always find a way to change my mind...
I'm sorry for giving up so quickly, so frequently, but I'm glad you keep fighting.
I kind of feel like Neo, I'm not deleting your message, for its the only way I get to hear your voice anymore..
I'm glad I've got to know you better, I'm glad I've got to grow with you, I'm glad that you feel the same, and I'm even more glad that I know it. Seeing a side of you I've never seen before I'm not sure what to do... you've got me speechless, and that's a feat let me tell you. It's been two years since I've been caught without words, and you do it to me with no effort.
I wish I knew where to go from here... what will happen with us. I thought it was clear and I knew what I had to do, but now I am not so sure. Again you've made me wonder, made me think, made me believe... I just don't want this hope to go to waste...
You've brought me up again, made me more of a person I'd like to be... I don't have to pretend, don't need to show-off, just be me.. stupid, untalented, honest, goofy, nerdy, unsophisticated, broken me and you like it. I can't explain how much that means to me, how much you've had an effect on me.
I'm sorry to my friends who feel that you've come first.. They do still mean the world to me, and you know it because we talk about it... and I'm glad that you are both a close friend and that much more... I am so lucky.

To the rest of my friends, I am so sorry. I've had a one-track mind.. I've been consumed.. I am sorry that's the way it's been, and will likely be for a little while. Thank you for bearing with me and sticking close. These next weeks are for you guys...

Who would've thought that I could fall harder, who would've thought it could happen so fast?

</3

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 21:16:07 GMT

that was the most heartbreaking thing of my life..

even if it was a dream. it felt so real.. i even woke up because of it.. was almost sick to my stomach, felt my throat tighten up.

i am definitely in this too deep.

roller coaster much?

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 15:45:44 GMT

So since I last posted I have cut ... out of my life apparently. (I have... I just forgot.. good sign I'm hoping. I haven't forgot about him.. but forgot that it was so recently.. only a month ago.. that I said bye forever)

And its been kinda crazy here.. I'm living in a roller coaster world that's going a million miles an hour. summer's over 1/2 over and ive only saved $2035 for tuition. Oh mann... I've been working insane hours though, and hopefully that'll really pay off come September. On the job front... I have a new one. I'm basically taking Terri's position because she got promoted :o) Yay for her and me!! I'll be making more money and have more hours, (well sorta..) So I gave my two weeks to Chapters. I'm really going to miss it there, I'm also going to miss the discount. But really, I'mma miss the amazing people. Especially Jenn Mike and Matt. :o(

Aside from work... I haven't been doing anything with YOUCAN. Not like me I know, but I think I have to figure some stuff out about myself before I go back, and I really think I have to organize myself, my time, my financial situation, etc.

Socially, I tried to cut myself off for June and save some money.. I did really well too!! I saved so much money by not going out.. (other than twice...okay 3 times. where I bought one drink each with Chapters peeeps) So it all led to the climax: June 30th. It was good times, it was nice to see errrybody again (sorry Bri u werent there :o() It kinda felt like high school all over again. Despite the weather and everything else going against us, we managed to make it happen even tho it was much smaller than expected. It was fun, and drama free for the most part which is AHHHMAZING. Also AHHHMAZING was a certain person that came.. totally made my night.

July 1st-Canadeh was good times. It wasn't the bestest but it was still pretty darn good. Woke up, did the last bit of cleanup (thanks to the girls that did it first thing in the am!!) Then went home and did my chores.. Showered and went to meet up with Terri. We went downtown and met up with Mitch, and then later the rest of the guys. It was jus a good day of chillin'. It was like a Merivale Reunion, it seemed EVERYONE was there.. it was really chill. Certain person was suppose to call me to meet up, and didn't so I was kinda </3 but then I realised person did, but had the wrong number, and even called my friends so we could meet up. It was good. So needless to say I was kinda on cloud 9 for those two days. I'm kind of head over heels.. and by kind of I mean quite. But I realised nothing's going to happen from it. Only downside.. Kraft and Meg left me. Man, and over the next week all I wanted was to give Kraft a play-by-play of how everything went down. I honestly think if you were here It'd have happened differently.

Skip forward to July 4th. --Shaun's b-day, Happy B-Day Shortie!! His party kinda opened up my eyes and was a mega confidence booster. I was a good girl though, and now I'm kind of wondering why, but not really.

I dunno, everything in the past week from the 30th to the 7th was AMAZING. Everything seemed to be going right, and now the past 36 hours have bombed. I was feeling amazing, thought I knew how he felt, thought I was the luckiest girl on earth, then those thoughts and feelings came crashing down.. I knew it was too good to be true. It always is.. I always fool myself. I cried myself to sleep and I honestly think I cried in my sleep from the way I felt this morning. I couldn't eat yesterday my stomach, and heart were in such knots. And I feel worse for Moe cause he went all out on the line for me.. and really got involved and started hurting myself, and I failed him. I really really like this person, I dunno what to do about it. I can't do anything.. there is no win situation (well there is but its about a 0.5% chance. Everything else is a win-lose, or lose-lose situation.

I think my only option is to move on... There are other options, but I just don't want to feel that I settled for second best. I hate having regrets, and I don't want this to be one of them. On the other hand, if I wait, it could be months and months, I'm only 18... it's time for me to live isn't it?

UGH. I'm done.. I'm still in this awful mood.. hopefully it'll go away by the time I go to work. I can't stand to face Moe, I'mma cry again. and it's been soooo long since I did. (aside from the past 2 days that is..)

Thank you Terr, Shortie, and Moe for helpin me through. It really does mean the world to me. <3<3

finally..

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 05:32:15 GMT

You're out of my life. Forever.

I will miss you, hell I have for a long time.

I hope you're happy.. all I know is you're no longer in my life. Next up: rip the pictures of us. I don't quite have the heart yet.. I've deleted any chance of the future, I'm not ready to give up the memories. I don't even know if I should.

I know right now I should smile, but i only want to cry..a lot.

</3

updates..

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 17:04:10 GMT

Sooo I said I'd write more on the exchange.. and I will, but I'll probly only start it tonight cause I know I should sleep.

First tho a quick update on recent events:
- Beach Day with Kraft = Great relaxation and lots of hotties. good times. next time we will come fully equipped! lol.. speaking of which EVERYONE should go to moonies to scope out some hotties, play some v-ball and catch some rays sooon.
- workin on le bedroom.. soooo excited!
- workin loads.. big surprise there :P but rakin' in the mooolah for school.
- im tryin not to go out much (weird eh?) but its to save money.. June 30th tho its all goin down.

and I'm still not going to do the exchange update yet.. why am i putting it off? simply because I want to give it the time it deserves.. and right now I'm trying to cleanse out everything.. my room, myself, my "friends" ... so I am in the right mindset to write that entry.

thank god for guy friends. i can rarely rely on "my girls" i have two that i know are there.. not a great batting average. 1, 2, 3... you're there every night for me. I appreciate it. 4.. I know you're there even if it's just about the least convenient friendship ever lol and 5.. i know you're there if i can put my frustrations aside. thanks boyz <3

<3 Love love love love love

Tue, 30 May 2006 01:18:48 GMT

KK SO I'm STILL SUPER uber in love with the exchange kids!!

I'll need a seperate entry for them.

Yanno what else I'm in love with?? Meeting boy potential through the exchange (sort of). So he's STILL cute and an all around nice guy, and we still get along grrrreat. I hope Eric and Pam are right and I'm in denial, but I don't want to get my hopes up. I've seen him twice since my last post.. of course still in group situations, and we've still had great conversations and such. He supported me when others were making fun of my most embarassing moment (and I would too if I were in their situation lol) and he can still joke around with me about stuff including have feelings for me and everything.. which likely means nothing's there. im keeping optimistic but the realist side of me's telling me he's too good for me. we'll see if he agrees.. I REALLY hope this works out. like really really. it has potential, and he's everything i said i wanted from what i know of him.. keep your fingers crossed for me.

anyway a snapshot of what's to come in my next entry:
Dawn's "pedaphilia" aka "crush" on Duncan
BranDawn
Water fights
Karaoke
Inspiration
Passion
Big Sisterhood
Dancing / Hooking up other muhahaha
Good talks
Training
Pictures
Debriefs
Crying

yanno.. the normal stuff, plus some unique stories about my kiddlets. I <3 them all.

I'm out... 1/2 Brandawn

<3 Edmonton <3

Wed, 24 May 2006 05:45:19 GMT

Love to the Edmonton Exchange youth. You TRULY do Inspire me.

Your passion is incredible, I wish I had what you have.. your personalities are amazing. I can't really say more.. but don't worry, end of the week and I will.

I wish to spend every waking moment with you.. everything else has frozen still in time, and that's okay with me.

I want to go on and on but I won't ...

but in other news: Boy Potential? I hope so. He's cute, smart, and apparently we really hit it off! (I didn't creep him out, now that's a damn good start!) Anyone who loves my ghettomobile as much as I do and will play off my phrases is good in my books haha. Dinner tomorrow night? This could be interesting.. *crosses fingers* I hope she predicts right again.

Hellz Yea.

Fri, 12 May 2006 16:29:51 GMT

I PASSED I PASSED I PASSED!!!

I don't understand HOW, but I DON't CARE!!
I NEVER HAVE TO TAKE LINEAR ALGEBRA AGAIN <3<3<3<3!!!
HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLZ YEA!!

In other news, I WILL MISS YOU SARAH! As if you're leaving me at that lame school all by myself.

And in most important news:
SENS ROCK MY SOCKS! <3<3

Woot Woot GO Sens GO!

Tue, 09 May 2006 04:48:44 GMT

>>IF YOU ARE afraid of what people think of YOU if you don't post this!!!!!
>>
>>Reply to me the grade you think I deserve.
>>Re-post this as "Grade Me Game" and see what people say ,gRaDe Me NoW...?
>>
>>Grade me
>>
>>F = damn you're ugly
>>
>>D = your parents must be heated
>>
>>C- = You're just someone I don't want to talk to, okay?
>>
>>C = You're okay looking, but u need work...
>>
>>C+ = You're just average
>>
>>B- = You're kinda cute and ur cool i guess
>>
>>B = You're cute. And you're a pretty interesting person.
>>
>>B+ = Pretty damn attractive. I'd hit that.
>>
>>A- = You're extremely attractive, and you're
awesome.
>>
>>A = DAMN YOUR SEXXXAY!!
>>
>>A+ = Gorgeous...
>>
>>A++=SO HOTT will you marry me
>>
>>A+++=TAKE ME NOW ON THE TABLE AND KISS ME AND DON'T STOP

8 days ... 13 days <3

Tue, 09 May 2006 04:37:48 GMT

Wow.

That's the best explanation of my trip to Edmonton... What an amazing and inspiring week.. I had some crazy doubts going in, and wasn't excited about it at all... Now I am so pumped its ridiculous, don't want to be home, but can't wait til the youth come to O-Town.

It may seem that I'd be retarded to have my doubts... but I had reasons. I was staying with a family I hadn't got a chance to talk to, with my "twin" being 15. Age difference anyone? And that was the only thing I knew about her, besides the fact that she has a pet snake. *shudders* And we'd be doing 9-5 youcan training everyday other than wednesday... training I have all done repeatedly. So really, I wasn't looking forward to this exchange.

My nerves went away the day I left though.. and I just kinda went with it. Getting to know the Ottawa girls a bit before we got to Edmonton was nice, they seemed super cool. Then when we got to the airport, I saw my host "mom" - Klara, and my twin: Jessica. And this is where I go off on a tangent. Klara was the most amazing person, I can't get over it. First of all, she's flippin' GORGEOUS. beautifullllll lady, and so caring about her family. She's healthy and athletic, and so is her entire family. She takes time for herself and to spend with her friends, but her family always comes first. She's just such an amazing role model and I thought she was fabulous. She became like my best friend while I was there and was so freakin' giving its ridiculous. AND she took me to the bar. WOOT WOOT. Hottest pair in that bar for sureeeeeee. So yea, I love her. And once I get the pic of us developed I will definitely post. And Jessica's younger sister Ashley.. she was so super cool. I never would have guessed she was 12. Her and I got along soooooo super amazingly well. She's super cool, and haha has the same style as me. She's beautiful too, and the guys in our group were like Jessica... we thought your sister was 16. So I had to be like nooooooooooooo she's 12. and way too young for you. stay away from my girl lol. I miss her <3

On another tangent.. I went to the West Ed Mall on Wednesday.. 7 hours in there was heaven. Man I love to shop hahaha. I bought sooo much stuff, and only spent about $250. I bought as much as everyone else combined lmao. It was grrrrreat. Plus it brought me and Vanessa closer which = amazing.

The YOUCAN training was actually interesting. Not that it isnt for me already, but I just mean because I've taken it soo many times. The Edmonton trainers were SOOOOO much different from Ottawa trainers, and that was cool to see... And Pam's just incredible so I learned alot.

But the most important part of Edmonton was definitely the people.. as always.

Considering I was the oldest in the group (most were 14-15, a couple were as old as 17) I was expecting a bunch of immature.. well ... kids. And those "kids" blew me away. They were so mature, a lot of them more mature than me lol. And so darn intelligent, giving, HILARIOUS and just downright nice.

So I'm kinda going to go through 1 by 1 and write a little something about each of them. Cause these kids really do mean a lot to me.

Jake: Started off too-cool-for-school, and by the end was one of the best mediators in the group I think. He has a natural talent for knowing the line and walking it carefully, yet so cooly haha. He's a tonne of fun, and I was so impressed by the way he opened up, and helped Lynsey to open up too. He's so m uch darn fun and really tries to make the most of every situation. I was crazy impressed by the way he performed in Edmonton, and can't wait to see him up in front in Ottawa.

Lynsey: Really opened up I think. I know she's going through a lot, so I'm even more excited to see her in Ottawa where she doesn't have a tonne of distractions nor will she have to leave early all the time. Haha, she took care of me on the roller coaster and I appreciate that so much. She's such a fun person, and I just can't say enough about her.

Tyler: Ohhh good old Tyler Haha this kid is like the epitome of funny innocence. He's the cutest thing on two legs and his cheesy jokes put even Dave to shame. "What's a pirate's favourite movie? .... Rated ARRRRRRRRRR" oh man, every day he had a new one. I was so impressed with how much information he took in, and what a little pimp he is haha. And as if he isn't crazy enough on his own, him partnered with Brando and Neo (ie. Brandon and Duncan) = dangerous.

Kieran: What a guy! Haha I think his ability to sleep and still take in information is a true talent. He is a funny guy, and I think has crazy potential. He's so quirky and interesting that I don't really know what to expect from him. I can try to understand how it feels for him to come into something that his sister has so much involvement in... and to me he isn't Eryn's brother, I'm hapy to see he's Kieran.. very unique and original.

Kelly (the boy): K, so at the start.. this guy is super quiet, shy and overall very wel.. quiet. By the end... oh no not anymore.  He opened up crazy muchly and was surprising us at every corner. I was so impressed with his knowledge and just overall personality. He's a cutie that can really make people laugh, even though that wasn't what I would have classified him under in the first little while of meeting him. (damn dawn, judgment not judgment)

Kelly (the girl): Wow okay, so her and Lana share a brain.  I was actually suppose to stay with Kelly, but I'm glad things worked out the way they did.. just cause Im soooo glad to have met Ashley and Klara. but ohhh man, Kelly knows how to have fun.. She's a crazzyyyyyy girl, and really just no afraid to act like an idiot and catch it on film haha.

Morgan: probly the biggest surprise I think from day 1 to day 6 or w.e it was... Her shutting down Duncan was CLASSIC! and a real eye opener to how much she opened up throughout the week. In the beginning she was so quiet and shy, but man did she know her stuff. She's such an asset to any organization and SUCH an amazing girl, I'm excited to see her in Ottawa where we get to see her all the time. I'm really excited to get to know her more.. she was just so unbelievably incredible.

Vanessa: okay, so I have personal attachment to Vanessa. We got along so super well, and I think she is just an unbelievably interesting person. I know what we do may not be her thing, and that's totally cool, yet she's putting energy into it. She is also one of THE MOST giving people I have EVER met and she's so sweet. I think one of the biggest things about Vanessa is she's REAL. She's not going to pretend she's something she's not and is so confident within herself. Man I wish I had that at her age. She's also INCREDIBLY mature for her age, and sooooo much fun to be around.. man I want to partay avec her forever lol. Also, I think what she said in our "hug circle" was one of the most touching things. She didn't have to be eloquent, she was just incredible. I'll always remember her bouncing and saying "Dawn! Okay.. So.. I haven't said this to ANYONE else in this circle, but really... I LOVE YOU" Oh man. Vanessa, we will have crazy good times in Ottawa. Boo-yah!

Jenn (O-Town Jenn): Honestly, the most disciplined person ever. haha.. and she's got sooo much passion. She's INCREDIBLY intelligent, and interested in world issues, development and people around her.. a real look into her caring and giving nature. She also surprised me, especially with her emotional attachment to people. I found it so amazing how she developed relationships, and really opened up, especially with Jake and others.

Jenn (E-Dot Jenn): Haha, PIMPETTTTTEEEE. so she's dated duncan like 5 times, brando once, tyler a few times, and just about everyone apparently. She is the cutesttt little thing. And I love how she's not afraid to let her emotions show, as we saw when she cried and I think that's just amazing how she felt such an attachment to each and every one of us. Haha, I hear she's the life oft he party, so I'm excited to see that.

Duncan: Ohhhhh Duncan. Could he spew out YOUCAN material any more? like really.. haha. I think it's interesting our initial impressions of one another.. he thought I was going to be a snob, I thought he was going to be just like Tom (they look exactly alike). THANK GOD NOT! it's funny how after teh first day when i didnt hate him he started to love me, and when he wasnt like tom i started to loveh im.. it was good times haha. He is actually one of the funniest guys I have ever met, and I think he's such a cutie with the way he treats girls and everything. He's a catch.. for anyone who's his age! lol.. despite popular belief, there is DEFINITELY NOT something going on between him and I.. he's just a flirt.

Keshia: What a beautiful girl with so much freakin' potential. She knows just what to say to make you feel like a billion dollars, and she's sooo funny. Not to mention so intelligent and just watching her interact with people, mediate, think.. it's amazing. I wish I could speak the way she does, and I can't wait to partay and go clubbin' with her. What a team that'll be!

Lauren: I feel incredibly awful... she thought I hated her! And I REALLY don't know why, but I definitely do not. She's one of those girls that is just super cute inside and out. My first impression of her and her mom was incredible! "Welcome to Edmonton *hug* *gives goodie bag!*"

Lana: Crazy girl, crazy girl. Aka Cameron. So much fun to be around and just all around a very nice person. We're gonna have some crazy partying for sure. Woot woot!!

Brandon: Oh Brando. I really don't even know where to begin. He is probably the most mature 14 year old I have ever met, and I love him to death. SOOOO much fun to be around, and tonnes of fun to joke around with. He is a BRILLIANT kid with soo much freakin' potential, and a huge heart. He's also super cool and hilarious. He is DEFINITELY one of the people who left the biggest impression on me, and I am beyond excited to see him again (in only 12 days!) You can be sure there'll be more about him to come.

Sabine: Oh you think she's innocent, but helllz no. She IS cocky ;o);o) Jokes. What a cute girl, she's like the quote goes "look like a flower, but be the serpent beneath it" ... so her haha she seems all nice and sweer, bu tthen she'll strike. Like in games, it's good fun.

Cody: Ladies man for surrrre. Pimpin Jess ;o) He's the quiet guy, but yet has so many diverse personalities (in a non-creepy way!) He's so much fun to be around and is a gentleman to the fullest. Hardworking and caring.. that's definitely Cody.

Jessica: I am SO glad I got to stay with you/her because otherwise I don't think I would've got to know her near as much as I would've liked. (not to mention her family is AHMAZZZING!) But yea, such a unique, thoughtful, intelligent girl that deserves the best! She stands up for herself and her beliefs, and is not a conformist, she's just unique her and doesn't care what anyone thinks about that. Jessica + Cody = Adorable. Make it happen girl!

Tegan: What a beautiful girl. Like really. Inside and out. She's quiet, and YOUCAN may not be her thing but she has so much going for her its ridiculous. I felt like I really got close to her, and was SO lucky for that. I hope things work out with her and Aaron, may one of us be happy! She is also SO freakin' talented. As me and Sabine clearly discovered. Whattagirl!!

Curtis: Its so weird to write his name.. cause I really only know him as dodds. I love him, cuz he makes me look good haha I'm not the only one who is ALWAYS late lol. He seems so weird, but he is so damn eloquent and intelligent, and has a way of giving a description that is perfect to each and every person. It's a gift I say.

Pam: She may be a chaperone that I already knew, but I have to put this in.. Pam really helped boost my confidence. Because of her praise, and her ability to teach me more, I truly feel that I am ready to do things, like training, and will be able to make a difference. Her faith and belief in me is amazing, and means the world to me.

Each and every one of these people has had an impact on my life, and I love them all for it. I've learned something new from every person on this list, and I think that's what life is truly about.

I can't wait.. by the time I've finished writing this it is only 12 days til they come here.

I am beyond excited.
WOOT WOOT!

Effin' proud to be Canadian

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 04:10:35 GMT

This is our game.

Best and most beautiful game on earth (even if half the players are missing a bunch of teeth, noone said they had to be pretty.

Flames are the new comeback kids. Kickin' ass.. go Iginla <3 that's what the C is for.

Everyone's playin' hard, its fast.. there's never a slow moment. I frickin LOVE playoff hockey.

And of course.. the Sens are kickin' mighty bum. I am in love with this sport. How incredible.

The cup better come back to Canada, we've got four teams in the running (who ever needed the Leafs anyway ;o)) and they're all in good positions (minus vancouver.. but oh well :P) We can make it happen. I just hope we do. (and by we.. I really mean the talented dudes playin' the game, cuz really.. can I do it? hell no! lol)

Even though these teams are made up of international players, Canadian support is unwaivering and I would love to see the Cup live here again.

So as the playoffs go on..

GO SENS GO!

and cheers to all the other Canadian teams.

Oh yea.. linear algebra exam in 9 hours? oops I kinda forgot!

Slow Dance

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 05:17:30 GMT

I got this in a forward.. and I'm not putting it behind a cut because I think everyone should take the time to read it. This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York hospital, and then was sent by one of her doctors.

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

bored..

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 03:25:35 GMT

Your Seduction Style: Prized Object

The seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get.
You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them.
The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase.

You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away.
You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance.
Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't!

You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors.
Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor.
You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

First: Welcome home Deanna! Hope to see you soon!

Second: Rev up the Red! GO Sens GO! 1-1 ... its okay, the alarms are not sounding yet.

Third: One exam left. HALLEJUAH! Can't wait for it to be over.. damn algebra... (think u can help? I'd love you forever!)

Fourth: Saturday night was good. Saturday morn made my first booze run. What a loser eh? Meh, always had friends to do it before. Thx Obie Wan for directions.

Fifth: I leave Sunday. A week gone. It'll be beautiful. I'll be UBER screwed when I get back because I will be broke. Which isn't so bad in the short-run, its the long run I'm fucked for. How am I going to pay for school!? I have NO IDEA! I'm losing my scholarship, I shoulda worked harder in school. I can get it back, but it'll be HARD to do! I'm starting to stress about money majorly, and it's only April. My spending habits are ridiculous, and I have nothing to show for it. Clubs and my cell phone are eating up money like I never could've imagined. But I'm having fun for once.. I have to decide if its worth it. Oh .. the other thing eating up money like mad.. Going on trips. Winnipeg -- Check, spent a lot more than I realised! Edmonton -- 6 days: Eight hours in West Ed Mall... can you say SPENDAHOLIC'S GONNA BE BROKE!? Vancouver: In June.. that'll be dangerous too! Bark Lake: In August, won't spend hopefully too much, but will lose alot missing another week of work. I'm such a dork.

Sixth: I need a boy. I've got a couple of guys in mind as who would be ideal, but I am not going after them. I would love to meet someone like them though.. that'd be nice... REAL nice. I finally make the decision that I am willing to put aside the time to pursue a serious, adult relationship, and I'm not interested in anyone. Fuckin' lovely eh? My relationship problems are entirely my own fault. Yea, enough teenage angst for one entry.

One last quiz, and man I am glad I got this result otherwise I woulda killed the creator, it IS my name afterall :P not sunrise.. dawn.

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary.
You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward.
Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts.
All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

December 5th .. coolest day ever.

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 03:02:42 GMT

Go to wikipedia, enter in your birth date (without the year), post three events, two births and one death.
If you read this, consider yourself TAGGED

December 5th:

Events:
-1484 - Pope Innocent VIII issues the Summis desiderantes, a papal bull that deputizes Heinrich Kramer and Jacob Sprenger as inquisitors to root out alleged witchcraft in Germany and leads to one of the severest witchhunts in European history.
-1933 - Prohibition ends: Utah becomes the 36th U.S. state to ratify the Twenty-first Amendment to the United States Constitution, thus establishing the required 75% of states needed to enact the amendment (this overturned the 18th Amendment which had outlawed alcohol in the United States).
1955 - Martin Luther King, Jr., 1929-1968, leads the Montgomery Bus Boycott, 12/5/1955-12/21/1956.

Births:
-1932 - Little Richard (Richard Wayne Penniman), American singer and pianist
-1901 - Walt Disney, American animated film producer (d. 1966) (SOOOOO COOL!)

Death:
-1926 - Claude Monet, French impressionist painter (b. 1840)

And just for my own personal fun... what makes my B-Day the coolest ever!!!!
Not only is it International Volunteer Day (how suiting!) it's also:

DAY OF THE NINJA!! Boooooooo-YAH!